I Will Trust.

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I’m praying. I’m believing. I’m declaring. I’m seeking you God. So why am I not getting what I’m praying for? God, what am I missing?

I was frustrated. I was driving home after a ridiculously long day at work. I should have been too tired to think honestly, but one single word kept coming to my mind as I drove… why?

Why aren’t you answering my prayers?

Why did you let them hurt me?

Why do you ask me to pray then remain silent when I ask?

Why won’t you give me what I’m asking you for?

Why won’t you answer my questions?

Why, why, why, why, why. 

I had a million why’s.

I stopped for a moment and I felt God speak to me, not an audible voice, just a knowing in my heart. 

You think I’m keeping something good from you.

I thought about this, and realized yes. I did think that God was keeping something from me. The evidence was in my insane frustration with Him. I was asking God why He wasn’t giving me what I thought I needed. But all of a sudden I realized, that is a lie. 

Matthew 6:30-33 If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. 34 Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.

God’s word says that every single one of our needs have been met. That is the truth. We have what we need for this present moment. When we need something else, we will have that too. Me complaining about something that I believe I need and should have is basically me telling God that He does not know what I need. 

Verse 34 in the MSG says, God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. 

So me wanting to know what was going to happen in the future, wanting to know so many answers to so many questions… really the truth is that when I need to know something, God will reveal it to me. 

Psalm 34:10

The young lions do lack and suffer hunger; But they who seek the LORD shall not be in want of any good thing.

Psalm 84:11

For the LORD God is a sun and shield: the LORD will give grace and glory: no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly.

Matthew 7:11

So if you who are evil know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!

These three verses tell me that God won’t keep something from us that is good for us. REPEAT THAT TO YOURSELF. If it is good for you, God will not keep it from you.

Friend, God is GOOD. He knows what you need, when you need it, how you need it. He is a GOOD Father. Maybe you didn’t have a Father, or you had one that was abusive or mean, and you don’t know what it is to have a Father that wants the best for you. This is something that is so important to know, God is GOOD. He loves you more than you can ever imagine. He loves you so much that He gave the best of Himself so there would never be anything to separate you from Him. 

You didn’t want heaven without us

So Jesus, you brought heaven down

My sin was great, your love was greater

What could separate us now

-What a Beautiful Name, Hillsong Worship

That is the heart of your Father, one of love for you. He wants good for you even more than you! That is why it is so important for us to trust His no. 

Eve had this same problem. Lisa Bevere once said, “Eve thought there was something more than what she had already been given.” Eve thought that God was withholding something from her. She went her own way and we all know how that ended. 

For example, many of us are waiting for a husband, how can we imagine that we will submit to a husband when we can barely submit ourselves to the will of God? When we continuously do things our own way instead of trusting God?

Submitting to God is trusting God when He says no, when He says wait, when He says not yet. It is trusting that His plan for our lives is better than our own. It is trusting that He knows what He is doing with us because He is a good Father. Submitting ourselves to God means that we won’t try to control everything and everyone in our lives because we trust God enough to not have to control the outcome of every little thing. We pray that the outcome will be not our will, but His.  

Matthew 6:24 says You can’t worship two gods at once. Loving one god, you’ll end up hating the other. Adoration of one feeds contempt for the other. You can’t worship God and Money both.

You cannot have two God’s in your life. You cannot be your own God, fulfilling every desire you have at any given moment and trusting your own thoughts above God’s. You will have to make the decision who will you serve. Will you continue to trust in your own understanding or lean into Jesus for His?

This may be new to you, trusting God, submitting to Him, relinquishing control of your life. So many of us have been bound to fear for years. Fear of letting go of our lives, not knowing what it would look like if we didn’t control everything. I just want to encourage you tonight that God is a good Father. He knows where you are and you can start exactly where you are now. 

Call to Him, He hears you.

Love, 

Stephanie

TSAW Contributor